That day I found out disappointment can kill

...and work and good friends are always there to help me heal.

It's been my third night on sleeping pills. I'd never know it'd hurt so bad to see things I try to run away from the whole time. In my head I have hatred, disappointment, and most of all jealousy; along with that irony image of proof, it just make it impossible to fall asleep. Good that wise daddy always keeps some sleeping pills handy. I've never taken them before, but I realize it help me a great deal to survive 6:30am wake-up call every day still.

I also hate to be this negative person. Friends' been awesome; they have been checking with me to make sure I was ok. Erin sent me this quote I found helpful:
"When life gives you a hundred reasons to cry, show life that you have a thousand reasons to smile."
- Unknown

I guess she's right. But man, god has been tough on me. When he lets my life go downhill, he really goes all out. On that worst day in my life these two years, I got hurt by my own hopes with no mercy, suddenly got a deep cut on my finger out of nowhere, hit the most humid day, floor was all wet and I fell harshly to leave both my knees some matching dark purple bruises.

I just hope it's true when people say you should be happy when your worst days come, because that indicates all your remaining days will be bright and beautiful. I don't think anything else can beat this in a short run.
Interestingly the cut on my finger really hasn't healed these couple days, but I was just kinda giving up on taking care of myself. And finally it was the girl at the manicure place who gave me a band-aid. (smile) I guess nothing is the end of the world. Friend also said there're a lot of people who care and love me (and you).

My days shouldn't keep going downhill like this. Trying my first night without the sleeping pills now. Night night world!

The new Miss Sunshine at the factory

It's been a while since I decided to spend some time at this factory... for passion, for family, or for reasons I don't even know. Honestly, if I let go of all family obligation on my shoulders, I'd never want to give up what I had and spend an extra day here. But here I am - not perfectly happy- and life goes on.

Yesterday I got a little surprise came up, and happy that I got a friend to share with, and I thought I should share with all my beloved friends and family too.

So this day we found our little factory dog gave birth to 4 babies yesterday!! It's a miracle coz she's only 2 years old, gets tied up every day because our people are scared she would run beyond the factory area and get stolen. Every winter, people steal dogs here and sell them.
I was very surprised how she got pregnant coz there was only her and 2 baby-baby puppies in the factory!! Apparently workers said there were some untied male dogs from neighbor factories
that would sneak in in the middle of the night to hang out with her. Doesn't it remind you of those cheesy romantic stories? So Romeo and Juliet-like.
I tried to visit her earlier today. She's now moved to somewhere with a shelter but still gets tied up. She's not the little protected one anymore, she's fierce and very protective now, holding her
babies very tight. Every time I walk closer, she would give me a cautious stare. Ah, I pity her and admire her. She's young yet so tough and strong.

Looking at her really cheers up my day. Thought I would share this thought with you guys.

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Hello 2012! I trust you will be good:)

It's this time of the year again.

Don't know if everyone has this year in his/ her life, after all 25 years of growing and positive path, when it came to end of 2011, I felt bad, I felt lost, I felt like I didn't achieve anything this year.

Before I go back and check what I've gone through to make me end this year so badly, I couldn't wait to make a list for my new year resolution hoping 2012 will be a change.

Into 26.
1. Career: get company registered and start running.
2. Family: simplify structure at MJF, Keep it simple and continue running.
3. Self improvement: marathon, dive, volunteer and travel writing, spanish, make 1.6M on the side.

until today, I never know mother nature can take people away from me...

RIP, our mighty Chris Smith.

Kate is officially my favorite waitress in town!

I just told Lucia yesterday, if I were to name ONE reason to stay in Melbourne forever, it will be... the loyal skinny latte. However, today I have to restate my statement.

It will have to be Kate, the waitress from Three bags full! She remembered my name and sent me the exactly the same cheesecake I ordered last week! Really, nothing is better than this on a sick night. Perfect sweet treat, Spanish study + lots of love (except poor cake got smashed a lil by the delivery man)

Pictures from last week at Three Bags Full:

 
 

I can hardly say Three Bags Full have the best breakfast because Melbourne simply has TOO MANY good cafes with 5 stars+ food. However, Three Bags Full certainly has the award-winning service - it's Kate!

1 month's gone, only 5 months left

This is exactly what's on my mind when I woke up this morning.

l got to Mel on Jan 9, on paper my remaining time here will be less than 5 months
= 21 weeks (or weekends)
= roughly 41 days to explore the city, cafes, restaurants, bars and pubs in Mel, and most importantly, the people

41! that's it? The number doesn't sound right, I'm already sad:(
Never get this feeling with other places I lived before (at least not this early).
Maybe I've finally found MY city? don't know yet, but I got 5 more months to figure this out.

You're beautiful, Mel. Can't find a reason to leave you.

With that said, at this point of my life, I got all the strength and freedom to go and stay everywhere I prefer. Really I've nothing to complain. Simply grateful and happy.